How are you, Sinead?
How am I?
Firstly, thank you for asking.
Secondly, I’d like to say I’m good, but alas I’m not. I am all sorts of okay.
Currently procrastinating writing an essay whilst having a tiny little puppy sit upon my lap, at home for a few days spending some much needed time with the boy. It’s lifted my spirits but personal situations are still up in the air and stressing my out, that on top of assignments and exams coming up, I’m a bundle of up and downs.
Seeing my mum the past 3 days has really helped me.
I am so thankful for her love and support. She feels I need to move onto campus so i’m forced to interact with others because she thinks the isolation of where I am now is really starting to hurt me mentally and she’s right. I get low a lot and even though I need time to recharge from interactions, i need interaction. I really do, I get too down without it.
She’s amazing and I really miss her already. Considering going home after bendigo this weekend. We’ll see.
past the stress eating stage and now just plain not eating again.
living on coffee. latte after latte. it’s all I can stomach. my stomach is a pit of anxiety and my head is going along with it.
not coping at all. i want to be home but at the same time, home is really just his arms and I want him here. i need his hugs desperately. i miss my boy.
constant states of anxiousness and the suicidal thoughts creep back in.
Fueling myself through this assignment with coffee. I have no understanding of any of the content and will be surprised if i can even achieve a pass.
If anyone is experienced in quantitative, qualitative, correlation coefficients, p values and RCTs, in fact basically ANYTHING to do with health information and data or bonus if you’ve done this subject, PLEASE help me. I’ll pay you in coffee and love. I just need enough understanding to pass and I can’t get my head around ANY of it.
Dealing with everyone elses crap and mine gets pushed aside. I’m putting myself last and stress eating out of control. I can’t deal with this much longer and I don’t know how to fix anything.